Heh. So it has been a LONG while lol! Bad peanut!
Why has it been so long? Well you see I have been stuck in this rut of mine for the past 2 years? Kinda not knowing what I'm doing or going with this non-existent "career" of mine. I spent a lot of time thinking I'll never make it and everything I do is not worth presenting cause it's just crap. And got stuck in the vicious cycle of trying to find a job with no experience, 99% of jobs want you to have years of experience! So how the hell am I meant to gain experience?! Ugh. Anyways I came across some words of wisdom from Ira Glass which kinda gave me a new direction and new way of thinking that wasn't so negative upon myself.
Nobody tells this to people who are beginners, I wish someone told
me. All of us who do creative work, we get into it because we have good
taste. But there is this gap. For the first couple years you make stuff,
it's just not that good. It's trying to be good, it has potential, but it's
not. But your taste, the thing that got you into the game, is still killer.
And your taste is why your work disappoints you. A lot of people never
get past this phase, they quit. Most people I know who do interesting,
creative work went through years of this. We know our work doesn't
have this special thing that we want it to have. We all go through this.
And if you are just starting out or you are still in this phase, you gotta
know its normal and the most important thing you can do is do a lot
of work. Put yourself on a deadline so that every week you will finish
one story. It is only by going through a volume of work that you will
close that gap, and your work will be as good as your ambitions. And I
took longer to figure out how to do this than anyone I've ever met. It's
gonna take awhile. It's normal to take awhile. You've just gotta fight
your way through.
It made more sense when I started thinking about the first Illo I did in uni, it was just terrible! Then I started to get better the more I tried (cause I started to get better marks LOL). Everyone says I have potential, I couldn't see it myself because my work never met this expectation that I had seeing what other artists could do. So I think I finally see the light lol. To just keep drawing and practising. To keep that fire that inspired me in the first place to do what I do.
Only issue is I don't have a current job that's not sucking the life out of my savings in the mean time. Sigh. Being poor blows